It's been a while, almost 2 months since my last post. A lot has happened since and as such I was unable to contribute much time to you, my readers and to this blog. It is ironic that the last entry was inspired by the same person who inadvertently inspired this one...
I've spent about all of July studying self improvement and a lot of spiritual stuff. I made a decision to leave my life in NYC behind and sort of vagabond around until I see another sign as to where I should stop and what I should do. My trip began with a phrase I heard from a very special mentor of sorts. He said "any time something gets you down...LOOK UP" simple yet very powerful statement. And, so I went upstate New York, deep into the Catskills mountain range to meditate, look inwards and also be surrounded by nature and the stars which I love so so much (wanted to be an astronaut or an astronomer when I was a kid and spent weeks breaking night and studying the stars out in Pennsylvania).
to me, seeing the infinite is beyond words, or at least my ability to use words to the describe the feeling I get...
One night, it was pouring rain, it came on almost out of nowhere and rained very hard. As I was stuck in my tent reminiscing on good times and positivity, one specific day stuck out in my mind...I felt extremely inspired to pick up a pencil and paper and draw! For those of you who don't know, I went to an art school from 6-14 before I unfortunately had to give it up due to pressure from my father to get "serious", something that has subconsciously and at times consciously soured our relationship, to the point of tears even...
I felt a rush of inspiration (again, stemming from the person that inspired my last entry) and began to sketch and draw a specific scene that once made me warm and fuzzy inside...this beautiful person (in any aspect that the adjective "beautiful" can be used) is no longer in my life, and though I am very saddened, I have the utmost faith in her ability to continue to bring light into this darkness of a world. Another friend of mine asked me once "How do you care and love people so much when the world is so dark and twisted?" My answer was a sly smile and words of another wise woman "Oftentimes, the ones who are so hard to love, need it the most" . Furthermore, G-d or whatever force it is you believe in, throws many hardships towards your way, for some more than others but it is a BLESSING, because the harder your turbulent times and the more you are tested means you are EQUIPPED TO HANDLE AND WORTHY OF THE CHALLENGE! I will be posting more on this "self improvement" aspect but for now...my art work and a song I had playing on my 2nd gen Zune mp3 player as I was sketching this (this song is also ironic as it's on the subject, and further demonstrates eternal, external, omnipotent powers that be :) the next morning when I traveled into the nearest town to get some supplies I checked my VM and a mentor of sorts and a good friend, had gotten into a car accident. If that wasn't bad enough, another dear friend of mine committed suicide and I had to return. (my original premonition of belonging somewhere else must have been untimely). But remember, guys, keep your tips up because:
CAN'T RAIN ALL THE TIME...
I apologize for the distorted image but the upload settings are a tad screwed up at the moment but you get the gist :)
Peace and Love
Best and Better my brothers and sisters :)
